• Well, its over, and I'm home. It all went very smoothly, and all the ladies there were lovely. I have some minor aching going on in the womb, but that's it. 
• But Im soooo relieved. E

  specially that Im not constantly feeling sick anymore . I still feel a bit sick coming into a damp, smelly area (AKA my room...which currently smells like cats because Ive been to sick to my tummy to clean their litter box... ewwww..)... but its not like I actually start gagging like before.
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  I have a friend that tried to talk me out of it last night, 

  but no go. I dearly respect her opinion... but I am just NOT ready to carry a child, no matter whether I kept it or adopted it out... I cant afford to have a pregnancy and to be honest... I just didn't even WANT it... I didnt want anything to do with it. She told me she was going to get tough on me and remind me that I got on the train by having sex, knowing that it could go to pregnancy...
• But my thought was... wait a second... no, with all the birth control I used, I bought a ticket to Kentucky (no pregnancy), not chicago... so me ending up in chicago (preggos) was NOT the plan.
• She demanded I fess up to the fact though, that I knew that it was a possibility, however slim, and I should own up to the consequences like and adult.
• I dont see my choice as a childlike choice. I thought long and hard about this.
• Childlike to me is having a kid thinking your in a position to raise it and then failing miserably as a mother.

I cannot bring myself to regret the decision at all. I truly feel I made the correct decision. And the important thing was... it was MY decision.